I RHYME my PAIN

Everything I’ve lost, nothing I’ve gained
. . . . . This is the reason I rhyme my pain



I rhyme my pain, I rhyme my miseries
My life is a scam, like fake degrees
My future is jittery, my vision is contradictory
My life is a sheer loss, I hope death will be my victory

I’ve messed up my own life, I’ve no one to blame
God wrote my life but the paper seems plain
I’m shooting at stars without taking any aim
Life is a bitch, what a manipulated game
 

My life is like scattered leaves which no one will claim
. . . . . This is the reason I rhyme my pain

Few days ago God committed a murder
World said dog, I called him my brother
People said don’t cry, go and get another
World is so heartless, I can’t call them humans any further
 
PIZZO was the best thing God ever created
He was a Kohinoor which cannot be replicated
I wish I could turn back the hands of time
I wish he could once again become mine
 

Without my Pizzo my life won’t be the same
. . . . . This is the reason I rhyme my pain

One day I was sleeping and I got a call
Dad is not well, rush to the hospital
With tears in my eyes and prayer on my lips
I reached there just to see papa’s heartbeat skip

PAPA died in front of my eyes, I couldn’t save him
Till the end he kept on smiling, how brave of him
He was a saint on this earth, no one can portray him
I hope he has gone to a better place, I just pray for him


DAD was my everything - My sunshine, my rain
. . . . . This is the reason I rhyme my pain

Since dad passed away my mother doesn’t keep well
She doesn’t show she is in pain, but I can tell
God took away her mother, father, husband, and Pizzo-son
She still believes in god and says He’s the only ONE

MOM is my strength, my guardian, my friend
My mom is my idol, an unfading trend
She has struggled a lot in life just to fulfill all my needs
I’m lucky to have her, I must have done some good deeds

MOM has always lived for others without any personal gain
. . . . . This is the reason I rhyme my pain

I found the love of my life but she wasn’t meant for me
While I was striving to get her she was finding a new he
Her parents disapproved because we both followed different religions
I think they misinterpreted God’s version of humanity and his vision

SHE still comes in my dreams and my eyes drizzle
Was she forced to leave me or she willingly left?   This is the riddle
I’m sure she tried her best but I still think she could’ve done more
But if she is happy in her life then I couldn’t have asked for more


I lost everything for her; she said she didn’t gain
. . . . . This is the reason I rhyme my pain

I’ve lost my lil’ brother and my lovely father
I’m unable to properly take care of my sister and mother
God gave me a life but it seems like a committed murder
I’m tired of myself, I don’t want to live any further

So much to rhyme, so less time
Everyone seems to be my own, still can’t call them mine
The pendulum is swinging, I’m losing the time
God gives me pain and in reply -> I just rhyme

On this wonderful earth, I’m the bad stain
. . . . . This is the reason I rhyme my pain



In loving memory of PIZZO (29.01.2000 - 10.04.2012, 1:30 PM, in my arms)

Pizzo's facebook page --> P I Z Z O




                                                                                          - J.Walia